Bits of Sweetness: Friday on my mind

Friday on my mind

Dear little one,

You are almost 10 weeks old!
You are looking more and more like a little baby!
You've been on my mind a lot lately.
Part of me is so scared at the thought of having two little ones to take care of now.
And, I don't even know why.
I've always been nervous about this change,
but change doesn't usually ever get to me.
I think it might have to do with having your sweet four-year-old brother
and being able to meet all of his needs, and all of your needs too.
So drastically different, yet both important!
I don't know how I will do being stretched two different ways,
but I know your daddy will try to help as much as he can.
He is so good that way. He loves us a lot, and does such a good job taking care of us.
Maybe it's the sleepless nights. We had so many with your brother.
But, we made it!
I was thinking though, and you know what?
I realized after all these doubts and thoughts that,
"You know what?
I can do this.
God has blessed me with these two beautiful little lives. 
I can be a mama to both of them
He is the one who gives me enough strength and grace for each day.
I can do this."
And then, I felt a little better. I already do it with your brother!
It will mean changes (a lot less me time, as selfish as that sounds :-S )
But I know it will all be worth it.
I cannot wait to feel your little flutters,
and to see you move against my tummy.
I can't wait!!
Your daddy gives you the sweetest kisses already, and tells you that he loves you.
It makes me melt.
Your brother has been begging for days and days to go to the hospital
so they can do an ultrasound and he can "see" you on the ultrasound.
He is in love already.
He noticed my tummy the other day, and told me,
"MAMA! The baby is growing!!!"
You are, sweet child. I am smitten.
I want so badly to buy you darling little clothes, but alas, we wait ten more weeks!
That's ok though. I cherish the moments.
Part of me worries that you'll be ok.
We lost two little ones already. And, part of me is holding my breath.
I don't want to get my hopes up.
But, I am trying to trust God. He is my strength and my song.

I love you, little one.

Love, Mama


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2 comments :

  1. Yes, there will be lots of changes... but all totally worth it! You are a good momma!

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  2. You'll do great! Number two was by far the easiest transition for me, hopefully it will be for you too. Really happy for you guys!

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