How's this for real life? Mirror smudges, phone almost dying, taken at 1 am, and all!
I think part of me is in denial; denial about the reality that is my life and the romanticized version I thought and hoped it might be. It's not that I hate my life (although, haha ok some days I might struggle a little bit with extreme dislike bordering that). I think things just end up taking on a new kind of meaning when you experience them rather than imagining what they might be like.
My sentiments exactly little man!
This reality right now? Um, can I trade it in?! Please?! At least for maybe a little bit more coffee and a few more spa days and a remote that has a pause and mute button?! The past few months have been an internal conflict of accepting that this, this reality is the life I have, despite how much I may beg and plead for it to be different.
Real life means that the toddler is screaming about why he wanted his pink cup- just kidding! now he wants the blue cup! Just kidding! Now he's throwing both cups filled with juice all over the kitchen and wailing- LOUDLY- over the spilled contents!
Real life means that you might have to raise your voice just to get your kids to listen because they honestly cannot hear the nice sugary sweet perfect mom voice.
Real life might mean that your kids are out of listening goodness and they get sent to bed without a bedtime story (uhoh. the horror!) because you are too exhausted to clean up after them (and don't want to either to teach them a character lesson about owning responsibility!)
Real life means that you yearly pay off your library fine just to have it reappear a few months later.
Real life means that sticky spot never quite gets cleaned up, even with the best of efforts.
But you know what I am finding? As hard as it is, and as much as I would like the romanticized version of me to appear, it's ok. It really is. There are so many positives! I have started telling myself, "You know what?" to keep some perspective.
"You know what? it might be 7:00 and we have naked little banshees running around, but they had fun today!
"You know what? It might have been a stay-in-jammies-all-day kind of day, but the kids are alive!!
"You know what? I might have raised my voice way too many times today, but those kids are loved, and tomorrow is a new day.
I am still having to work on letting go of the perfect fairy tale life I wish I had, but in that, I am finding that you know what? This messy imperfect story is pretty amazing too!
Own your story guys! God has a plan, but if you try and look too hard, you just might miss it and spend forever missing what is right in front of your eyes!
The hubs' life verse! Find one and cling to it, even if it's just a key word or phrase from it!
Write it down, put it as your phone screensaver or find a song about it- it is literal therapy!